Monday 22 October 2007

coming soon...tang tang tang tang

my b'day 2 more weeks to gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,coming soon soon n soon..................................haha............................

was discussing wf dear wat to buy for me...i wan ODM watch...............i wan...........ahseng,ru chin,ahtai,dear,cen even mun yu...get it?????????????haha...................

my bday here,wfout UTAR 7 tiger tht used to celebrate wf me every year since i knw them!!had spend my bday wf them for 4 years...this years wfout them n the year tht they had their industrial training...jus cant get used wf tht........

Sunday 21 October 2007

random

jobless...from full time staff to part time!!the head manager ald come bck from vacation,so the full time staff is more than enuf...2 weeks working life really makes me no time for everyth..even when off day i also not feel like going out,jus wish to stay at home sleep n watching movie...
dylan,working at foreign country is not easy as wat u tot...it's really hard...so u better think n think think n think for ur decision...
erm...mayb my life wont so bored anymore,at least thr ar some1 tht wil call me n sms every9!!muahahahaha...some more i knw few new frens from my working place tht can hang out together!!!i act been to cflub on thursday nite wf my housemate n their frens,but friday i need to work,n friday mostly wil be very bz...so i'm damn tired on friday when i working...muahahahaha...keep done thing wrong n been scold...


Monday 15 October 2007

tired...

thr is only 1 word to describe myself now - tired!!!mentally n physically tired,some more my laptop is spoiled!!!damn!!!

housemate asked me y my panda eyes so serious!!!act i also dunno!!but 1 thing i can confirm tht i'm not sleep well every9 even though i'm very very tired after work!!my leg is damn pain everyday bck from work!!!cant even walk more!!!i cant sleep well i also dunno y,my housemate said mayb i'm too stress!!!mayb i think!!!everyday very scared tht i did someth wrong,but this makes me more careless n nervous!!!i don wish tht,but wat can do???

1 of the staff asked me, u knw wat u wan?n u knw wat ar u doing now?wat is ur purpose staying bck at UK n work in unhappy condition??think abt it...,yes,think abt it,i think i knw wat i wan,but i jus cant stand it!!!i'm really need to be tough n tougher to adapt myself in this worst situation n environtment!!!don take too much notice of those hong kong ppl,they ar no better than others!!!this is wat my uncle told me when i sms him to complaint all the stuff!!!

it's only the 1st week past,but it seems like i ald work for the whole year!!!

Saturday 13 October 2007

dying

laptop spoiled, working life sucks, so conclusion is totally mentally n physically tired n exhausted!!!if god provide 3 wishes for me, the sequences would be:
1. go bck to m'sia
2.go bck to m'sia
3.go bck to m'sia
min hwang says :stupid, the last wish shld be "3 more wishes"
so m i stupid??i jus don care abt tht,wat i wish is jus go bck to m'sia as soon as possible!!!!!!

Tuesday 9 October 2007

太委屈。。。

还是受了委屈。。。是也骂不是也骂。。。就我帮忙自己的同事也要中骂。。。。。唉。。。骂得我真的当场就眼泪打滚。。。。。可是还是强忍着。。。。。刚才跟明煌抱怨,感到窝心的是他很生气我在这里受委屈,他叫我不要做了,马上回去,他一直叫我不要做了,回去,然后很生气骂我的人。。。真的高兴也感动。。。知道他没看这个blog的,可是还是想跟他讲声谢谢,原来他是不想我留下来的,我原以为我跟他讲他一定会讲叫我挨一下苦,做工是这样子的话,可是他没有,他就只叫我回去,他叫我马上send resume给他,他马上叫他的亲戚帮我找工,真的没想到,搞到我真的很想马上就回去了。。。。。可是我真的不能回去,我还要还钱,赚钱。。。

唉。。。我真的不坚强。。。真的不。。。厨房师傅告诉我什么都不要想,只要想着每个星期6出粮,一切就会很好,师傅还安慰我说在外地打工就是这样,真的要忍。。。。。师傅讲他是过来人,他了解我的心情,在他们都对我语气不友善的时候,师傅也有帮忙讲话,真的很感谢。。。师傅讲满脑子想的都是钱,那你就会很好过了。。。

Monday 8 October 2007

家里终於可以上网了,现在是午休,才从餐馆回来,等下5点又要回去了。。。还蛮累的。。。可是为了生计,又能怎样呢??我这个礼拜还是试工,可是是有工钱的。。。希望我做得好好,他们会录取我吧,我真的厌倦了到处找工和试工的日子了。。。我想要有一份稳定的工了,可以吗??

听到一些谣言,不知是真是假。。。。。最好是假的,我只想说我现在单身很好,我不想有什么改变,至少我现在真的不想,谢谢你所做的一切,你真的是个好人,只是我很想一个人生活,感情对我来讲现在是累赘,会压得我更喘不过气来。。。我们还是朋友。。。不用买任何东西给我,我什么都不缺,我不是只有一个包包,我的包包,鞋,衣,首饰多到我都晕了,问问我身边的朋友就知道我从来不缺这些东西,仲恩hoh??ru chin hoh??ah seng hoh??seng跟我去shopping过,他知道我怎样买东西的。。。ru chin,dear更清楚吧??常常都帮我提得大包小包。。。我一直用那个包包是因为它是新买的,我对它还新鲜,而且这里我没有必要用好好的包包,因为反正现在是外劳,用再好都是多余的。。。

很想睡一下,等下醒来做工。。。只能说1小时。。。显掉。。。

seng。。。我收到你的offline msg了。。。谢谢你的鼓励噢。。。。。我什么不会好好照顾自己的健康噢??现在没时间出去玩了啦,不会喝酒了啦,显掉。。。哈哈。。。我现在在日本餐厅做工,每天都泡绿茶来喝,很健康,哈哈。。。不用担心我,自己做工了才知道赚钱辛苦。。。。。可是每次出去逛街,我的钱都没了,做么这里每天都sales的,唉。。。怎样存钱噢??seng,你的bank account no给我,每个礼拜出粮了我快快存进去然后你帮我收着。。。。。ok??哈哈。。。

random

我几天不能online,因为有问题。。。这几天呢,都是在找着full time工,今天又到某日本餐馆试工。。。还好,不会辛苦,可是很忙,明天还要去试。。。刚刚到那边时真的很压力,不懂为什么,我看到店里很多人,然后他们跟我讲话的语气又很认真,严肃,搞到我很压力。。。可是做下来就很好了,觉得很ok 。。。

放工了,我要等jc和弟弟一起回,因为太迟了,大约12点了,我怕一个人走回,所以我就坐在jc打工的店外等她。。。我真的不辛苦,我做得来,可是我就是忽然间很想念我的家人,让我很想找个人讲话,可是想不到要打给谁,我就打给他。。。讲讲下又流眼泪了,刚刚朋友才讲我坚强,其实我试工是没钱拿的,还要什么都做,可是我没怨,我承受得了,其实也算是给人欺负吧,我没为了做工的事情流泪。。。我坚强吗?? 我真的不知道。。。我只是知道我很想念我的妈妈和弟弟。。。

最近在网上遇回他,一个很特别的朋友,友达以上恋人未满的朋友,当我们谈起我们曾经的一切一切感觉很好,被他的记忆力感动,也为他甜蜜的一语一言打动,让人想念的感觉真好,让人期待你回去的感觉也很好,你自己知道有人等着你回去可能再续前缘的感觉更好。。。多想把他所说的一切save起来,可是不能,因为是在人家的家上网。。。懊恼。。。

那天call回家乡的好朋友,晴天霹雳,因为很多事情发生。。。唉。。。人事全非。。。觉得时间真的很恐怖,很残忍,可是又不全然是坏,因为时间可以改变一切,将好的转坏,将坏变好。。。矛盾。。。是时间吗?? 还是人心?? 还是人的本性将这一切改变的呢?? 花无百日红,可是转变也别那么大吧,给我点时间慢慢消化好吗?? 可是在这里做工可没有慢慢学的道理,你最好是万能的,一学就会,一来就上手,老板才最喜欢。。。天啊,真的有压力的,晚餐没吃,可是寿司师傅做了一个手卷给我吃,可能他看到我一直忙进忙出,可能他知道我还没吃晚餐的吧。。。厨房师傅又切了一些水果让我吃,我本来不敢吃,因为好像在偷懒,可是师傅讲无所谓的,吊颈也要喘气啊,所以我就快快吃。。。哈哈。。。师傅们自我结束的时候都很好笑,他们会讲我叫xxx,来自xxx,xx岁,还是单身,英文叫做single and available,幸好师傅都很好人。。。

最后要感谢老天爷眷顾,让我有机会去试工,谢谢。。。