心淡

离开了让我开心，也让我伤心的地方。。。离开了熟悉的味道，熟悉的生活方式。。。我比想象中还不习惯。。。我比想象中的思念。。。

姐莲生日，我想回去，因为她希望我回去，而且之前我生日她也为我铺排了一切，让我过了很美好很美好的生日。。。基于有情上，感激心态，我真的很想回去。。。可是却被你一口拒绝了。。。我真的真的很失望，真的。。。可是我能怎样？你还要我不要让他们知道是你不让我回去的，我只好欺瞒说是上班的原因我回不去。。。

其实，我真的想走出你的影子。。。真的想。。。我希望我做得到。。。

分手只要一个人的决定，可是相爱却需要两个人在同时间互生情愫而结合。。。何时容忍会让我清醒而放开这错误的决定？爱上你是我的错，可是离开你我又舍不得。。。

away soon...

after bcome 'supergal' fly here fly thr(hometown to kl) for 3 month...finally i wil permanently staying in kl right after christmas...n i knw,i gonna start missing u....

daily routine!!!

wake up early in the morning,wash cloth,need to wait for few hrs if the cloth is too much as he need to wash all the cloth separately...
fill water into all empty bottle then reboil again...
prepare n boil chinese herbal as to reduce his cholestrol...
only finish all his thing only i can turn on my pc n go bath...
finish bath,start having all my healthy drink-organic,collagen,enzyme,fresh fruit juice make by myself...full...
wash all the dishes tht he left last9...
while waiting for the cloth,im sitting down n online...
hang all the cloth then im done wf my half work...

waiting him to wake up then going to breakfast...
sent home and start housework again...
sweap n mop whole house...
prepare all the thing for cooking..
if i stil got time i can online n watch astro..ahaha...

counting the time and start cooking,serve him to eat n wash all the dishes again,while he is laying on sofa n watching movie...
after clean the kitchen i hv to kept all the cloth...
if he would like to go out,then im allowed to follow,i wil be out til late night...
if im not allowed to follow,then i wil spend my whole night watching movie in the room..
b4 sleep,i hv to make sure everyth hv to be done...if not i wil get in trouble...

im spending my day like this everyday!!!!!!!!!i wanna escape to my own world!!!!!

happiness...

wil down to kl again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!as another old old fren married...hv to attend the dinner again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!seeing frens around me all getting married,feel like they ar so so happiness...they found their true love,they spend the rest of their time wf the person tht they love....

i dunno y im so so so tolerate....y i hv to bear all ur angryness all the time???y i hv to let u throw away wat i had cook wfout saying anyth although my heart is really really pain???

i jus wan to hv a normal life!!!!!

the actual day!!!

rush bck to hometown early in the morning at 8 nov...coz frens in hometown wanted to celebrate for me as well!!!!!!!!so i spent my actual day at my hometown wf my frens...having dinner n my favourite cake-mango delight!!!!!always my favourite!!!!!!!at 1st we planning to drink in a pub,but so coincident those pub tht we would like to go all closed......my frens avoid disapponted of me so they keep looking for a place for me to celebrate,finally we found 1!!!!haha!!!

thr is someth happen tht day as well,which makes me feel upset n unhappy on the day!!!not bcoz of the venue,but bcoz of attitute of somebody tht really hurts me lots...

for further pic...pls refer to my facebook!!!haha!!! add me at k_eng_eng@hotmail.com


im now currently in kl...ald been in kl for a week...the purpose is to interview n helping my frens in health fair tht held for 3 days...fri,today n tml...is quite tiring but it is fun...i think im so socialize,coz only 2 day then i ald can make ots of new frens...my fren was like 'wow how come u knw so many ppl jus within 2 day???' haha...dunno...i jus like to walking around to others ppl booth n chit chatting...haha...so bz body of me!!!!

it's nov!!!!!hu~~hu~~hu~~

me n my cousin!!!

ok...finally it's nov now!!!!!!!!the most excited moment tht i waiting for had jus past!!!!yes.it's my bday!!!!

my bday is on 9 nov,erm...at 1st tot tht i wil celebrate it in my hometown!!!but so coincident my fren's wedding dinner held in kl on 7 nov...some more it is on sat!!!!!yeah!!!this give me an excuses to heading KL...wat to do in kl???my typical bday celebration,CLUBBING!!!!!!!!haha...this is a huge gathering for KT ppl other than chinese new year!!!!i knw i can meet lots of fren tht we do not seen each others for ages....

so reached kl at 5 nov,coz of interview n looking for dinner dress n shoe...altot i ald own dinner dress n shoe,but greedy me stil would like to hunting around whether i can found someth much more pretty n nice!!!haha...gals...always lack of a dress in wardore n always lack a pair of shoe in shoe rack!!!! end up im attending the dinner wf new dress n new shoe...haha...

been bz interview,meeting frens,shopping...happy...been driving fren's car all around kl...hate the traffic...we ar late for the dinner bcoz of the heavy heavy traffic jam...the dinner start at 7pm,but we only reach at 8pm...so the dinner started once we reached...pai seh...

the dinner held at ah yat abalone restaurant in avenue k shopping mall,which thr is a club - quattro also located in the mall...so after dinner we ar heading to club!!!!erm...it's around 25 of us...wow...happy n excited coz we meet lots of hometown fren...we drink dance n play crazily...due to im driving so i don drink much...but they said im the bday gal so i hv to drunk...so i drink n i pretend tht im drunk n sit aside...haha...when looking at them drink n play crazily,im so so so happy.........

the day end up at 6am...after club,we going to mc d n talk abt the past...when we recall bck the past,haha...was so crazy n unbelievable...

wat m i doing now??

wat m i doing recently???
sleep
eat
online
watching movie
shopping
spa
travel
beauty treatment
drink drank drunk
party
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i spend alot of money tht's y....
the most important is ---keep sending my resume...

i got 2 reply tht request me for interview,so coming wed morning im flying to kl for the 2 interview then fly bck again at night...

pls----------wish me good luck------------